After all its just a face

squares and hoops

stick a square on your chest
around your neck
hang a square like a necklace
symmetrical shape hung square

Dans la bibliothèque

Now I'm here in spearmint blue
Pointless pale chopsticks
who wants to eat anyway?
You left the taint of blue in my new wooly hat
Though,
it suits my face, this colour

'Cascade the dark curls'
rest on flowing crimson gown

thats your girl

goofy, heartwarming smile
test you like a sun rise
over fully blossomed hills

thats your girl

frowning neurotic tick
beat you like
her embroidered emblem, hair clip

I know you didn't ask her over for tea

in the middle of the night?

So while she sitting
bemusing
in her literary chair
I'll be there
with you
playing
the verago of her novella

I, I,
jetsam me
stinkingly
try-ing
to overthrow
fido fido!
waif-ing
she-wafting
I touching
she jangle-ing
I humming
she singing!

I laying dark in a fine jersey knit

She dream voluptuously on a poofy poofy
night slip.

'Cascade the dark curls'
rest on feathered pillow

thats your girl
blue-stocking

Then I'll be your Chanel


Wine lipped and camel
straw haired and flannel


'Cascade the dark curls'

Nylon

First we kiss
Then you will lock the door by day.

Look at you
in your electric blues
standing boldly
waiting to coo
me off
into the greywash outdoors

I don't like your goodbyes
their florescense
uneases
befriends

electrically forthright
to soldier me out

and where are your love eyes...?
my soft face retains
in bug lit
and liquorice blues
I'm watching for clues

everything
anything
I'm holding there
and waundering?
temporarily
for you

And there with your bug eyes
so subtley I snooze
pear appetite of water
flowing pale, I lose
the juice
and fall on my lap!
to absorb another second
than mop up another wreckage

of pared down
dry light
of a hop skipped
and fair night
with me and electric blues

I don't know if it is acceptable

to wear such florescent colours

Set, set that crown on the ground

Shipment confirmed. unfinished.

Soldiers and mermaids
Soldiers and mermaids

I think I'd be different if God hadn't violated me!

GET ME A w a y

A w a y

from the Seamans church

If I'll be all knowing
that the men are marrying the mermaids
shot into the sea
NOT ME NOT ME
the mermaids getting the men, and loosing their toes...
watered down woes of shell touching brutes/

but did you ever see a boatman take off his boots?

And so with bandages on my knees
I'll be carrying the boatmens wives dainty feet

I'll learn their secret ways by instinct and watching,

........................
the Seaman, who'll always give me time to comb my hair

then march me in, to the chapel of my molestation
suited and booted

flanked

 to take on a temporary role

bare bossomed blood bank

make her walk the plank, make her walk the plank!

'If the walls were too thin

you would break in...'
Pornographic Soldier

Cornered

If I'll be seen

in a corner

slowing my pulse

discoiling your skin

in my hand

to let it leave

let it be

and alien beings
taking from me!

jet haired pigeons
always taking from me!

If I'll be seen

walking out

I'll be leaving you to eat

while,
I'll be wired outside the shop of your fancy

the walls that hang the stuffs

that lure you in-- 

fine strings of the deli
hang-ing

presenting to you,

an array of
tings

unwrapping themselves to give you wings,

disloyal lodgings of other craving beings

and silvering...

go
find your other sightings!
dig with a pick

And if I'll be seen,

in a corner,

slowing pulse,

discoiling skin,

then you'll have unwrapped

your tinny tin tins -

come back to me cornered!

with entrance fees in

to a cave all stoned up,

to your booted feral whims

...................

The Phase of my life

what you see in me is 'one of the same'
but for me this is simply a phase.

Do not venture too far

Truffle

a frop of auburn head

rest on the side of a thigh

that was my biggest delight

slapped up, mucked up. slappers fear. the slackers brigade of meerful cheer. and near it, knock it, face it down, the slackers brigade have found their gear. and speed it up and knock it down, and your profound!- head in the ground. And lolly lopping. started STOP. slackers here, slackers here. pock a poch and poke it in. slappers fear slackers near. and longing lobside, wake it up! you've had enough! you've had enough!  

Rushing there to touch the skin
sensi, done
sensi, done
souly, softly
quiet eyes
gentle lip, and smoothly thighs
gently there
gently there
grab a wrapper
wrap it up

wrap it up

who gives a fuck


a breathy freeze or quiet sleep
cottons down
half way down
can't you hold it?
can't you dear?
so wrap it waist it
give it here

wrap it up
back it up

slackers here
slackers here

Bridges

We didn't build our bridges simply to avoid walking on water. Nothing so obvious. A bridge is a meeting place. A neutral place. A casual place. Enemies will choose to meet on a bridge and end their quarrel in that void. One will cross the other side. The other will not return. For lovers, a bridge is a possibility, a metaphor of their chances. And for the traffic in whispered goods, where else but a bridge in the night?

Jeanette Winterston, The Passion


Our souls, they are Siamese

A performance written

You sit and I watch. The boy and the elephant. I dress you in a sailor hat and I watch you hide your face with balloons. I tell you to do so. Your hair is dry today, and your eyes are not as open as usual. I can’t tell if I love you or not. Don’t smile! You had to go and smile didn’t you?  And when I lean down towards you, you try and kiss me. Kiss me?! You think I want to kiss you. And its my turn now. But I wear a mask. An elephant mask. The elephant mask that suits me. I untie the anchor… from around your ankle and let you walk out of my shot. I thumble in, I dance for you. I march for you. I wave my little flag to the end of the earth for you. I wear myself out for you. Down for. And then we stand togther. I am fair and you are dark as a brown eyed camel. I pester you then rest in you. I pester you then rest in you. I rest in you and RUN! I pester you and RUN! I pester you and RUN. I RUN I RUN. I RUN.

And back for helping two. I’m running into you.

And always back to you. I’m eating into you.

And always back to you. To you I’m back to you.

And eyes will eat me too. My eyes eat into you.

And your eyes eat me too. Their eating in for you.

……………………………………………………………………………………...........

The elephant eats well. A gingercake. Something fresher. Something like a new ginger desert. Two nights too. I’m thinking ginger through. I’m smelling ginger too. I’m seeing gingered room. 

But ginger can’t take elephants.

And then I’m back to you…

And you can taste my ginger dream. My hunger eats you whole.

But I can’t have my ginger now. And you won’t fill my bowl.

And so I take you bit by bit. My swelling stomach moans.

You tell me you’re a philosopher.

But you just don’t seem to know!

You fill me up with all your words. For I should want all those?

You know a lot but got not gut. And I can see your holes.

The philosopher or the artist elephant?

Do you make or do you tell?

My swollen lips and bone dry hips

Need watering as well.

And so we’re living separately. The island and the sea.

But islands holding wells of me, whereas two Islands never meet.

The philosopher and the elephant. An unsatisfying meal,

For shes the body, hes the mind, But the only one to understand her kind.

Tanned skin became fashionable in popular seaside resorts

too...

In your room I am a nude land whale. 
Dressed in jersey, stretched over skin, tightly, clinginly to fleshy bits and bulges.
In your room I am a whale. 
I take up space. I make a mess of your visual. I contaminate your area code.
And I am nude. My flesh makes a mess of you. 
Too much too soon. I whale about hoping to swim unclumsily to you.
But its all a bit too true. Skin don't make for a clean front room.
And then I come to surround you. And the nudes too raw to direct you.
So after a moment your through.

A refusal to yield

A refusal to yieldA refusal to yield
A refusal to yieldA refusal to yield
A refusal to yieldA refusal to yield
A refusal to yieldA refusal to yield
A refusal to yieldA refusal to yield
A refusal to yieldA refusal to yield
A refusal to yieldA refusal to yield
A refusal to yieldA refusal to yield
A refusal to yieldA refusal to yield
A refusal to yieldA refusal to yield
A refusal to yieldA refusal to yield
A refusal to yieldA refusal to yield
A refusal to yieldA refusal to yield

Such little investment there, such pitiful investment.

The Renouncer

The renouncer – what does the renouncer do ? He strives for a higher world, he wants to fly further and higher than all affirmers – he throws away much that would encumber his flight, including some things that are not valueless, not disagreeable to him: he sacrifices it to his desire for the heights. This sacrificing, this throwing away, is now precisely what alone becomes visible in him and leads people to call him the renouncer, and thus he stands before us, shrouded in his hood as if he were the soul of a hairshirt. But he is quite satisfied with the impression that he makes on us: he wants to conceal from us his desire, his pride, his intention to soar beyond us. Yes, he is cleverer than we thought, and so polite towards us – this affirmer! For he is just as we are even in his renunciation.

The Gay Science Nietzsche

Or can you just not see my 'realness'?

Let the reality of the situation, come closer to life. Let the closeness of a real life, get nearer the situation. Let the situation and the life, meet. Let us meet. Let us meet. Let the reality of the situation come ever nearer to the life we hold. Let it grasp the life we lead in a hand which aches for the untouchable. And let the touchability of this untouchable little creature bring a life closer to a thing which is real. And so on, let the realness be a thing which touches, and a thing which strokes in utter touchability. Let you not withold your touch for only secluded places, let your touch be known, made more real to the situation. Because if the situation at hand, is the one that the hand holds, then, it is... a real situation. And in the sense that it is a real situation, then if avoided it becomes the lapse (your lapse) of not letting the real situation be. Do you see? Please please see the situation, be the situation (with me), I am in the situation and to be it is all very real, but you, you don't know whats real.

Buoys

Tattoos of ships sink down, sink down... anchors too heavy, anchors too heavy. Tattoos of ships on the arms of them, sink down, sink down, tooo heavy for them. No smiles to greet the damsons of morn, her heavy-staring-candy-face, looks doe at dawn. And f*cking leave now, and to hell, go away! The long, the wait, the swim, the boat... a salty coral chip, is sharp at the throat. And a mug facing down to the anchor that caught him, the anchor that caught him! The anchor that caught him. Weighting on him, she'll try lighten her gaze, but with a hand on the indent of her worker-woman waist, plaster casted kisses are forced on her face. And plaster casted touches all over the place. Heavy duty boars, weighing on him, weighing on him. 

New Desert

A new desert in reach. My barren bare essentials are hopelessly transforming. Becoming camel, the plainess that is felt within these bare dunes is seemingly satisfactory. What is this fulfilment coming in an undoing? A Downward intensity... How so? How so? We loose time in a sand storm of 'not everything has to be said now, not everything has to be done now' This time we can decide on how much to give, how much to take - without it being laborious, contrived. And who says that only passion is a raw material? Bare essentialism might simply mean giving one shade of beige at a time. And when, sleep becomes dusty, made nude under a harsh sun, dry mouths need not even summon to speak because, here on this lowland something in the lull of your gaze, and the gap of our speech act, makes for a space which is awkwardly thirsty yet fruitful in its famine. Freedom in fast. And now, when I see, I see a distant map of orangey plottings all around me, and am both compelled and assured that to keep travelling onwards... is but to bite a single one.

When I couldn't bring the columns down

I couldn't bring the columns down, not even one. Not being able to bring the columns, the columns down, the columns down. It is a pitty that when I lay down on the floor, Everything else still stays standing, upright. Lay me down easy, lay me down slow, but the columns can't come down tonight and so, and so, and so... We need to do this together don't we, we ought to do it together. Bringing the columns down together now. The boulders of blood, making us smaller, bring them down with me, bring them down.

Rectangular Dancing

To dance within a rectangle today. A slow dance, repetitive steps from side to side, front to back. Step side, step back, step side, step front. Step side, step back, step side, step front. Step side, step back, step side, step front.  No need to really think anymore then, not if the steps let me breath. Step side, step back, step side step front. Thankful to have the support of an arm around my back or else I might slip out. Box dance is a bare one. One might say expressionless, but that suits me fine. Here now refusing all transgression, I can become the lines. Being the line is less energy for me... than trying to either in or out, on or off. Lay me down and flatten me out then, I won't mind becoming the floor.

Pock-ets

Pock-ets are the small, self enclosed spaces- psychic, physical. And pock-etry, the act of anti-creation, reve-lations of the 'not so happening'. Envelopes here are never fully sealed, the cold breath of sentiment, seeps out, undetermined and unaware. And yet... pock-ets are always constructed from the finest invisible threads, somehow though, they are always pulled together a little too soon, unfinished and laying open they are notably incapable of containment. Their unseamed gaps expose what was initially kept concealed, so that these pouches may only ever be deemed unfunctionable. With each pock-et regulating its own pool, comings and goings leave small traces of the things that might not be seen. But no, not a marble will fully escape without some embroidered emblem of potential potentiality. Accommodating as they are, their smaller than life capacity and seamingly well constricted allowance may only last a short while. Binded unprofessionally in silent un-surveyed protest, they will inevitably unfold, unstitch or come loose.